Saturday Morning Message: Getting Through Tough Moments
Author: Carol Lane
Last week’s question asked what others do when a grief wave takes over suddenly. This picture is the necklace I wear every day. Inside the locket is one of Bryon’s boot camp pictures. When I feel that wave coming over me, I gently touch that locket and remind myself to breathe since I tend to hold my breath when I feel that emotion. There were various responses this week. Some involved staying in place and doing something and others talked about getting up and walking away. It depends on the circumstances and how strong each moment is.
Remember, you can write to me anytime just to communicate or if you have thoughts on what could make the Saturday Morning Message more helpful. I look forward to hearing from you. My email address is firstname.lastname@example.org. I directly receive all responses that are sent to this address. Thank you to everyone responding this week and those who read this message. Together we become stronger.
Mother of Bryon
Question for Next Week’s Saturday Morning Message
Betty, mother of Michael sent the question this week. Betty wrote, “I have found that sometimes even just reading a novel, there will be a line uttered by one of the characters that I find profound and applicable to my current circumstances. I usually write those down in a notebook that I keep for such things.” So her question is: Has there been a book, or a line in a book, that has helped you on your grief journey? We look forward to your answers.
The Saturday Morning Message was created so survivors can share questions and read how others respond. I am always looking for questions for future messages. You never know how your words may touch the heart of another. In order to have your reply included in the next week’s Saturday Morning Message, it is best to send your response to me by Tuesday morning of the following week.
♫ Song for the Week
Paula, mother of Drew, sent the song for this week that was shared by her daughter, Valerie, titled One More Light by Linkin Park. Paula listens to it often. I am sure it will be meaningful to you as well.
If you have a song that is special to you or reminds you of your loved one, please send it along with a sentence or two about what makes this song distinctive. One of our contributors, Andy, father of Danny, makes a playlist on Spotify of the songs that appear in the Saturday Morning Messages along with a few other songs special to him. You can sign up for Spotify for free to listen to the playlist.The playlist is called Tragedy Assistance Program for Survivors Songs of Love and Remembrance. I often listen to it and think of our TAPS family while I am on the computer.
Answers from Survivors
Responses from Survivors to last week’s question: When you are blindsided by a riptide of grief, how do you get yourself through these tough moments?
From Leslie, mother of Stephen: I find myself wringing my hands; specifically the ring on my finger that reads "Invictus." This was a favorite poem of my family that our son also loved and was read at his funeral. When I find myself doing this I recite the poem softly to myself.
From Caryn, mother of Nathan: It’s amazing how your emotions can change so rapidly, so unexpectedly, and still so often. I know of no quick fix, but for me I have to just go with the feeling. Then, I take as many deep breaths as I need. Finally, I think of a happy memory and remind myself there were more happy times than bad times. I carry notebooks with me everywhere, so I can jot down anything I need to. Writing is my saving grace! And I remind myself it's OK to feel whatever I'm feeling – no guidelines, no rules!
From Mary-Ann, mother of Blake: I think you never 100 percent get over those times when grief takes over. You just learn to handle it better as time goes on. Fortunately, they seem to hit with less frequency and less severe pain with the progression of time as well. We still have our "Blake days" when we just wake up missing him ever so much. It hurts terribly. Not a day goes by where we don't think of him, get somewhat choked up and/or misty-eyed, but the length of these spells seems to be shortening ever so slowly. Hopefully they will for you as well.
From Merry, mother of Wesley: Tears happen often during my day and my week. I will be driving somewhere and recognize a place that brings up a memory of my good times with Wes. This past week, it was the local Dairy Queen and Qdoba Mexican Restaurant. Every time I pass those, I remember a good time and I start to cry. Working through - I let myself cry, try not to ask, "Why is my life like this? Wasn't I doing my best as a parent?” You know, the 20 questions we can ask ourselves everyday. I let the feelings work themselves out and try not to beat myself up mentally and then move on. I cannot change anything. It is what it is. I miss Wes, love him, and wish he were still with us.
From Diane, mother of Caleb: When I'm hit with the two-by-four of grief, I've learned to just go with it. Ride the wave of grief. It reminds me of the deep love, the deep loss in my life. It's part of this journey. I can live with that. It does hurt, and sometimes the hole is so huge, it's hard to breathe. But, the sun comes out again, and we make it through another day. If I need to cry, I do. If I need a walk, I walk. If I need to rest, I rest. Sometimes I don't know what to do, and that's OK, too. It's a tough journey.
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